込む => to be crowded N3
を込めて => filled with; full of N2
再び => again; once more N2
たび(に) => whenever; every time ~ N3
及び => and; as well as ~ N2
たびに => Every time N3
Time, Situation
を[込「こ」]めて => Put A into it N2
Will, Decision, “Doing”
~にしのびない (~に忍びない)      => cannot bring oneself (to do); unable to bear ~ N1
むき => facing towards N3
Direction
むしろ => rather; instead N2
Compare
...はむりだ... => impossible N4
Description
なくて済む/ないで済む => get by without doing ~ N2